SINGLE TON

I chose to be single not to be exploited by predators. I knew I would be lonely but I would have peace of mind that there would be no violence, break up, cohesive control,mind games such as gaslight ING I have been a victim of gaslight ING by first boyfriend. He even tried to get back with after dumping me. We never got back together. Years later he found out where I lived and stalked me for a short while. He was still single because he was a compulsive liar. I am always sorry I didn’t smack his smirking face. Looking back on that time in my life he did me a favour ditching me. I had been called crazy by the pathetic weirdo. I tolerated his insults merely because he had showered me with attention which I didn’t get at home. I am ashamed of my weakness,but I was a product of a dysfunctional family. I do miss the support of a partner, but I feared ending up with another scumbag so much that I stayed single just to feel safe I am a sad spinster I guess, and I wish I had been lucky enough to find someone decent but that was unlikely since I attracted insecure types. Insecure types always abuse you.

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